welllllll would you look at that, i'm posting on this godforsaken shithole of a subreddit again :333

my boyfriend's abusive parents cut his internet access almost two weeks ago i feel so fucking lost. i haven't been able to contact him at all, he lives on basically the opposite side of the world to me, and i don't even know of he's alive (his stepdad makes regular death threats to him). i missed my opportunity to talk to him before he disconnected by LITERALLY A FEW SECONDS, if i had woken up just a few minutes earlier, or hadn't lay in bed like a fucking pathetic lump of meat for quite so long i could've seen his texts or called him or something but no. i missed my chance and it's my fault.

i actually don't know what to do, im terrified for him and feel so fucking powerless, what can i do??? how can i talk to him??? no one i know irl even knows he exists (save for my sister but she's like 13 and can't do anything to help), and i guess that's my fault again but oh well too late. i know this is an impossible question and there's no miracle solution save physical mail which his parents might see but i'm asking anyway because i'm desperate, is there a way i can talk to him, or literally anything i can do to help him??

maybe i'm too dependant because i haven't been able to function at all really these past few days but idk. it's two and a half hours past midnight but i can't sleep and i don't know why i'm writing this or if anyone cares but idk. i'll delete this later probably.

it's not like i'm getting any useful advice here but i just want to write this somewhere idk