I have to move w my dad

I have to move with my dad this week.

My parents divorced(guardians) so my dad got full custody if u could call that, and he moved out in january and ive been since here. I didnt really like my mom cuz my dad always talked shit about her, but since he didnt talk to me for a month i began liking her. I cant shes so kind and caring, and she opened up my eyes about my dad being a narcissist and a weirdo. I like it here w my mom n sis, its sunny, everyday's a good day, everyones happy no negativity. But at my dads literally, yes literally the sun doesnt shine and hes such a weirdo, pervert narcissist ego centric person that i just dont want to.

He didnt pay my mom a single penny, hes taking everything since hes petty, and he literally ruined my moms life. He doesnt have friends, and everyone hates me( even i do but what can i do), or atleast i go to therapy bc of him, and it scares me to move in with him. U cant talk about ur problems, for ex when i was sad and didnt talk to him for a day(i was in my room) he literally threatened me to send me back to the orphanages, and since then it happened 2 more times. And i know i dont act really right, but its bc of him. I have built up anger of him or smth, cuz everytime i see him my energy drains.

And im also scraed about the fact that my mom and sis will not like me , bc of him. And hes a blatant liar, everything he told me about his childhood, my mom, sis its all a fucking lie, i have proof.

And i just cant i dont like changes ,but its not only bc of this, i just dont feel safe and im scared if i act cold ,hell hit me or really send me back and i just cant take him mentally. I started crying like everyday bc of this of him, i dont feel safe or loved. I dont know how im going to survive 3 more years. I told him i dont want to move and even then he xant ask why. He literally doesnt care about my feelings cuz i was adopted and he buys me food and clothes and i should be grateful for that, i am but if im not hes a fucking asshole. My moms child died even at her funeral he could only talk about himself, my mom got cancer he doesnt give a shit, even strangers help her out but why him? Its not like were not gonna be neighbours. And here are all these animals im gonna miss them.

I dont know how im going to survive. I even cried writing this, even if i think about movong i cant breath i start crying. Its like im trapped.