Idk what type of situation i was in but it hurt me a lot and some how brings my worst personality.

Bro i was in something i also don't know what the fvk happend previous 5 months i met with a girl 2 months everything is fine we used to talk we got intrested in each other she said i love u i also love her . 3rd month she gave news she is engaged now with someone else she from rural area so she said i can do nothing about it but questions here she got engaged in her 19s but she kept talking to me after hearing engagement news it hurt me so deeply that i carried for some days .But i tried to distance my self from her i masseged her last time and blocked her .she contacted me via a friend she was emotional i also became emotional i unblocked her . She said i have 2 years we can talk these 2 year . Everything is normal now .

The twist although she was not in relationship with me but i love her, am so attached to her i don't like other men talking to her idk it hurts me . She was continuously talking to her x . She said i like him . I used to ask her what going b/w u and him . She is be like we are just friends. I've like okay . But idk i fought with her topic was x she support the x and blocked me . I apologized for fighting. After some time i fought with her same topic same darama . After 4th time when she blocked me the topic was still x . She just blocked me . I don't know what happened to me i cried that night and started laughing in morning my brain was in revenge mode . I exposed her to her x . Which is the most shamefull act of my entire life . After that i stopped talking to her . After some time i came to know that she in relationship with x now .I started threating her to expose her more idk why i was in that much anger . But i controlled my self cause i did it before i was to bad . Now am still blocked . I still cry,regret over my shamefull act I've done . Am I really that evil person? Is that my true personality?