Last exam is coming in two days and I cannot get out of bed.

As much context as I can give: I have been peer pressured into going to university and I never wanted to become a computer science person. Im so bad at it. If I fail this exam I will drop out, I have just enough credit to make it onto the next year if I pass.

I have zero free time for myself and have to study at late late hours due to working for 8-12 hours at my job, and I have been passing out for the pass few days now. My 21st birthday is coming up, and I know for a fact I will not be able to celebrate it as I will need to run stupid errands for my family, like every single off-day I had the past 8 months. I am shaking every waking hour from stress, my vision is also always swimming. Im so confused and angry and sad every day.

I have not had a single meal or coffee that wasn't interrupted. I once said it as a joke without much thought when my mom asked how I would like my coffee, that I would like it 'uninterrupted'. She threw the cup at my head. I always need to be insulted the moment I sit down to have a moment to myself.

I tried to come out to my girlfriend as nonbinary last year. She doesn't respect it at all, and I don't feel comfortable saying the stuff she says to me. It often breaks me to the point I cannot stop sobbing for hours. About 5 months ago, she dared me to drink a lot of alcohol and I threw up and don't remember much, but I remember feeling her doing things to me that I didn't want. She confirmed this to me when I asked her. She has helped me so much in the past, but she is siagnoses bipolar, and does some stuff that hurts me.

Its been so much... I have not eaten yesterday and today at all, I cannot move an inch of my legs. Im so tired. I have tried commiting suicide before. But I was taken to a hospital. I want to jump out the window and end it. Me and my girlfriend live on the third floor. I cannot take it anymore.

My name is Gio. Please help me. I want to live so much. But I cannot continue.