RH x My favorite notification

To the my favorite notification

A few months ago, I met someone here. What started as random messages somehow turned into daily conversations, endless yapping, and a connection that felt surprisingly easy.

I genuinely thought we got along really well.

Then one random Sunday afternoon... poof. Everything went bye-bye.

I got blocked.

To this day, I still don't know why.

Maybe some of you will think I'm silly for still caring, but for a while, I honestly thought I had found my person. Maybe not forever, maybe not the love of my life, but definitely someone who made life feel a little lighter.

I miss calling him while walking home. I miss our random conversations about absolutely nothing and somehow everything. I miss eating meals together on call. I miss seeing his ridiculously adorable dog, Lils, who proly has no idea she became the emotional support mascot of our relationship.

And with HOTD S3 coming soon, I realized I won't have my watch buddy anymore. We watched the show together, and somehow that little detail hurts more than I expected.

What makes it harder is not knowing the reason. For months, I was loyal to him. I loved him honestly and wholeheartedly. And despite how this ended, I can't deny that he gave me something precious: peace. He healed parts of me that previous relationships never could, without even realizing he was doing it.

So maybe this post is less about finding him and more about finding closure.

I even tried posting again afterward. Tried talking to new people. Tried filling the silence he left behind. But I quickly realized I wasn't really looking for new conversations... I was looking for ours. And that's when it hit me that no matter how many chats I started, it was never going to be the same.

Not because nobody else is interesting.

But because connections aren't interchangeable. People aren't replaceable.

And to everyone still searching for their person on here, the favorite notification, the one you can't wait to tell random stories to, the one who makes ordinary days feel special... I hope you find them.

More importantly, I hope you don't stop looking.

Because even after getting my heart handed back to me with no explanation, I still think love is worth it. Being a lover girl suited me well. It was honestly one of my favorite versions of myself.

That chapter ended when he decided to leave, but I don't think that means the story is over.

So if you're out there wondering whether it's worth sending that first message, posting that R4R or giving someone a chance... do it.

Sometimes people leave.

Sometimes they stay.

But every now and then, a stranger from the internet gives you a few beautiful months you'll remember long after they're gone.

And for that, I can't really hate the experience.