I was there

When my mom drew her last breath, I was next to her in the ambulance. We couldn't reach hospital on time. I knew this was coming. For past 2.5 years. With her heart trouble, with her diabetes, with her age.

But I still can't get the image out of her face, her eyes rolling back, her fingers scrunched. I wish I could do something, anything in that moment to change that. To save her. But I didn't know how. I couldn't save her. I just couldn't save her. I just wish I could somehow just save her.