Will you watch or say something if I walk away?

What we have or don't have is complicated. Sometimes I can feel how much you want me in your life, but would you ever tell me? To you its probably just words, words can mean anything and actions show intent. But for me, words tell me everything. I'm not asking for commitment, I am not trying to trap you. I just want to know that I'm not alone in this. That I matter to you. Some days I think you go home and you have forgotten I even exist, some days I am sure that I'm on your mind. Its like this crazy tether that I feel. I'm starting to convince myself of the former though. I'm starting to believe that everything is in my head. That I'm just someone you find amusing and sexy, but thats as far as it goes. I am thinking of putting myself out there to date. The sad part about that is, that I'm happy with what I have with you, even if it isn't anything at all. The only thing that makes me want to go, is not knowing if I'm alone. I have been asked out a few times and I have considered it. If only I knew what I was to you, I wouldn't be. When you think of me kissing someone else, do you feel anything? If I looked at someone else the way I looked at you, does it bug you? The sighs that I make when you touch me, someone else could be making me do that? I want you to tell me that it would fill you with panic, that I'm yours to touch and hold, just knowing you care. So that I can stay content in this unspoken thing we build