Venting // the girl who took my virginity was the MOH to my homophobic bully

My homophobic bully (bride) married my cousins fatphobic bully (groom)
In my personal opinion I think assuming when someone is mean to you that means they like you is harmful HOWEVER the groom after bullying my cousin in school , once at a party begged to fuck her she obviously said no
The way the bride way homophobic to me made me feel like she was projecting because why is your response to my sexuality “oh you don’t have a crush on me right? I can’t invite you to sleepover anymore because I’m scared you’ll watch us undress” and then she spread a lot of rumors about me and was just really vicious
Very Regina George
Anyway
My ex went back into the closet so that’s great they’re all MAGA now and she’s the last of her friend group to get married and I’m pretty sure she just got engaged and honestly it’s really upsetting because once upon a time I thought I was gonna marry her
Even her mom did
Her mom is bisexual
I have no idea why they’re defending Charlie Kirk now
That’s on being gay but not queer I guess
Like mother like daughter I guess they’ll both eat pussy in secret
Sorry if that’s mean I just need to vent
She left being in the closet with me for a woman too we were never official I was always her secret and it still kind of hurts I think it’s because she liked her friends and her social status more than she liked me
I know it shouldn’t matter but she left me for a masc woman and we’re both hyper femme and I think she couldn’t handle being in a wlw relationship that isn’t … heteronormative in a way? Someone is presenting femme and someone is presenting masc , and then she went back in the closet :( maybe the other girl being masc has nothing to do with it but I kind of felt like it did
I think she likes status more than anything
My first love is really shallow
… it’s really sad though because we were unofficially together for 5 years and met each others extended family and I think she knew me better than anyone
I guess I don’t know what she wanted
I hate that the rejection still stings