23(M) I don't know where to start

It's been 3 years since I have been in therapy, psychologist sessions and psychiatrist medication (Antidepressants and Antipsychotics) and still I am getting not much treatment out of it, I am good till I take my medication and I am addicted to it as well, if I drop them for even 2 days I started to get severe anxiety, severe OCD and obsessions

For now I am taking seroxat and lexotanil rn to do atleast my daily work

For my mental health

Severe Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD) and OCD ( obsessions and intrusive thoughts), PTSD, Depersonalization and Derealization

Past story linked

- Child rape from my cousin( phuppo ka beta ) when I was 9-10 years old ig but that things flashes in my mind time to time and that person lives in Canada rn

- Bullied intensively when I was in class 9 from my 2 friends + classmates total 4-5 boys that bullying went for 3 months and then when I started to defend myself the fight started and they boys knows about my house then usually they came and throw eggs, bricks and stones on the gate of the house I was terrified and afraid to go outside for 2 months+ after that I got tease from my family left the class 9 board papers wasted my 1 year and left the city and went to boarding school Alipur for 4 years matric + intermediate

This whole bullying situation was traumatic and still things flashes in my mind and till now I don't even have friends to hangout and always things come in my mind when I make friends that they will betray me , bully me, teas me at one time like in my past

- Child abuse in past from my father a lot of times and still having relationship problems in family rn that I hate my family and parents/ siblings and wanted to leave the house and this city asap

For my current situation I am taking medicine as I said , velo,

Doing PMO for coping things sometimes things get severely upset I know it will make things worse

It's like I am mentally and emotionally dead and isolated and can't get open up or nobody understands me

I am trying to get things done but it is not much easy

Currently I am in 4th semester and lost my 2.5 years of education

I always tell myself that the person you were today is one you should compare yourself with and be better everyday

I am 23old and still depends on the family I hate from my childhood they don't even know what is metal diseases, rape, trauma and abuse how it effects the person

Sometimes I compare myself on the people with on social media that they are younger then me making millions in that age

Pray for me I hope things get better for me.