Confidence

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Hey guys

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Im new here but I just wanted to say my experience with confidence , I'm not gonna say that I'm someone who's ugly or mid but I'm someone with a style that is so different than ppl around me , I hated that at first but then I just went with it

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I'm someone who never had problems growing up with my looks but when i started teen years I used to get bullied about some normal features I have and that was by my friends who I thought at that time they were my friends

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When I see myself in mirror I do see that I'm pretty and i got unique features but when I go out I just start to feel horrible and I just wanna go home cuz I start to feel like everyone is judging my looks even tho I know no one is

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Yesterday I had a long trip with my friends , they were all devine and i mean i looked good too and i got told that by many but when it was time for pics and i took pics of everyone w my camera i felt horrible I wanted to cry and I did I wanted to rip my skin off Wanted to just go back home I felt like I wasn't in worth of being there I went to the bathroom and i started crying like crazy i still am not over this and I didnt take a single pic of me alone cuz I always felt like i need someone in pic with me to carry it

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Is this normal when it happens everytime ?