It’s been 9 months.

It beens 9 months since I broke up with her, and it’s easily been the hardest 9 months in my life.

I loved her like no other, but I could no longer take the constant lies and manipulation. In addition, she was an alcoholic and cocaine addict. It wasn’t always that way, when we started dating she had gotten sober. And it was the best time of my life.

It’s been hard, and it comes in waves. But the rumination is still constant. I had heard very little about her up until this weekend. She changed her profile picture to a picture of her and another man. I don’t know who he is to her, but whoever he is, is her new favorite person. I also heard that she is still wanting to get me back..

I don’t know what I’m looking for in here I guess. I was venting with a friend and she asked what he COULD do to get me back. And I thought about it. He could do a, b, c and d but I would never trust her again. Such a mindfuck of a place to be.