I earned 11 lakhs+ in a month at 23. But somehow I feel lost.

Yes, I did earn 11 lakhs+ in a month.
For context, I’m not from a rich family. That amount is more than my family’s income for almost two years. So this isn’t a flex post.
This is more about how I reached something I once dreamed of… and now I don’t know what to do next.
It started around 2020 ma when I got into the stock market through IPOs. At first it was just curiosity. Then curiosity became obsession. I spent hours learning, reading, testing things, and looking for opportunities.
By 2023, I was active in NEPSE and forex. I made some money, lost some money, made more, lost again. The cycle kept repeating.
For a middle-class student, even those profits were already a big deal. Tara money does something weird to your brain. Once you hit one target, the next one appears immediately.
10k becomes 50k.
50k becomes 1 lakh.
1 lakh becomes 5.
And eventually, I even had months where I crossed 10 lakhs.
The problem?
The same cycle followed me there too.
Confidence, excitement, feeling like you’ve figured it out. Then mistakes. Then losses. Then self-doubt. Then rebuilding again.
To be clear, I didn’t blow everything up. Even after recent dips, I still have a decent amount saved. Risk management was never my biggest issue.
The real problem is that somewhere along the way, my whole identity became tied to this.
Now I’m in my final year of a CS degree in Nepal.
Bachelor’s sakina lagyo. Project, internship, deadlines le garda market lai time dina ni vyako chaina recently. So I stepped away for a couple of months.
And now I’m stuck.
Part of me thinks:
“You’ve already achieved more financially than most people your age. Why stop now?”
Arko part le bhancha:
“What if this isn’t stable? What if I never build an actual career?”
Ani feri aba bachelor’s sakiyesi, another question appears.
Job garne?
Abroad jane?
Master’s?
Or continue doing what has worked so far?
The funny thing is, I don’t feel fully committed to any option.
I have a CS degree but no strong specialized skill.
I know I can make money independently, but confidence has taken a hit recently.
I don’t want to quit because I know what’s possible.
But I also don’t want to spend the next 10 years repeating the same cycle.
Sometimes I feel like starting big again.
Then I remember how the cycle usually ends.
One thing I’ve realized is that when you’re broke, life feels simple.
You think, “If I can just make money, everything will be fine.”
But after you’ve actually done it, you realize money solves many problems while creating new ones too.
Direction,Purpose,Identity.
What comes next.
So I’m curious.
Has anyone here achieved something meaningful relatively young and then felt completely lost about the next step?
What did you do?
Right now I’m not looking for motivation.
I’m looking for perspective.