college selection has got me fucked

im the only child of my parents so theyre rlly possesive ab me, i applied to 2 local colleges and thapar (2hrs away from my house)

my parents werent ready to send me anywhere out of town it took me 3 months of convincing and hundreds of crashouts crying begging screaming to let me go there,

now my uncle n aunt work there as professors, i have always hated both of them never thought much of it theyy have two kids of their own, their son is my age hes going to iit roorkee and his sister is in 10th grade.

my dad is very very egoistic thapar choose karna wasnt for 'good future' or 'success' its for the sake of ke i was begging and unhone meri bat maan li

now hes saying ke humne tumhari baat maani ab tum humari maanogi sab baat

1. course will not b of my choice (i want ece they want me to get computing engeneering

2. i will NOT be staying in hostel but w relatives theyre insufferable very narrow minded very very negative energy

3. will have to come back every friday and leave monday morning

the reason i wanted to move out was cs my parents are extremely controlling and they hate me so much they call me a failure n waste of money i hate it here so i wanted independence and more calm atmosphere

now if i go thapar i stay at relatives, cant wear wht i want cant put my hair down or put on makeup or go out and even at college they will be there cs they work there 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

WHAT DO I DO

local college is lame v bad placement and will have to stay here same bullshit ive been living in for 18 yrs

now their son will go to an iit in a hostel and I'll be in the same place, or worse feeling my absolute worst zero respect or happiness what the fuck do i do

how do i convince them for hostel i am fucking crying this is my end