10 days

First time poster, been lurking for awhile.

Today makes 10 days, the longest ive gone without a drink in 3 years. The last 2 I went from drinking only on Fridays, to throughout the weekend, to every day. Every night I would wake up with my heart pounding, my legs and stomach hurt constantly, and I was permanently hung over.

The first few days felt like actual hell. My brain felt like it was swollen in my head and I was on edge. The next few brought a Clarity I havent felt since I was young. I feel like my face looks slimmer, and im less bloated in general.

Today, all I can think about is alcohol. I want to drink so badly even though I know I shouldn't. I cant drink in moderation. I couldn't sleep last night, and I probably wont sleep much tonight either. This shit is hard, and I just needed a space to express that. Things got better, and things will get better again.

I will not drink tonight, and I will not drink tomorrow.