First period post SA and I’m struggling

I had an SA on May 8, I was ~6 weeks. I had the abortion because I thought it was best as that is what everyone around me had told me. I have a boyfriend and he told me that he would support me however he never really gave an opinion so it all just landed on me. I felt alone in my decision to keep it because everyone was saying I was too young and would ruin my life, I ultimately jumped the gun and got the abortion. I immediately regretted it and was very distraught afterward. Part of me hoped I would get pregnant again immediately after, stupid I know. Today I started my period and I just feel so so sad, like I’m relieving all of my grief from my abortion. And this period is just taking a toll on me both physically and emotionally, my whole body feels heavy and my uterus just constantly hurts with my cramps being so painful. This is all just a lot to deal with right now and everything feels so difficult. I just miss my baby so much and I wish I got to be a mom. One thing I did learn from this was to always stay strong and be sure of myself, if I had done what I wanted and was strong enough I would not be in the position I am now. I just wonder if anyone else has felt this way and what they did to help them get through it. I really want to become pregnant again but at the same time I feel so much guilt.