The last 4 1/2 years

The last 4 1/2 years have been pretty bad. On Aug 18th of 2021 I lost my only sibling my amazing little sister to murder. She was found strangled outside of her car. The report said that every single one of her knuckles was broken trying to fight for her life. Sometimes I think about that and the fear she must have had and it’s hard to deal. She left behind three children. She was only 33. They haven’t ever made any headway into her case.

March of 2023 I lost my Nana who was the queen of my heart pretty quickly. She fell jogging and they sent her home and the. She just got worse until they couldn’t get her blood pressure back up. I still don’t think too much on that because my heart will break. The only thing is she lived a long life and was happy to see my grandfather again.

I lost my mom two years ago in March of 2024 to end stage liver cancer although she didn’t drink. One year and one week from when my Nana died. She was diagnosed a week before she died. A CT scan in January showed everything normal so I’m still mad about that. I thought she was okay.
Sometimes I wait until everyone is asleep and I cry my eyes out for my family. I’m 41 years old and I just want to talk to them and be with people who love me.