Small win!!

I hope it's okay to share this, since it's not a major achievement like a full shift or anything, but I feel like I'm just too excited to keep it to myself! (Also: I wasn't sure which flair to pick, so if I chose the wrong one, please let me know and I'll fix it!)

I just had the closest thing to a shift I've experienced since mini-shifting over a month ago. I was meditating on my back in bed, counting and saying the affirmation, "I am in my Waiting Room," after every number. It was tricky at first, because my mind wanted to wander and worry about things in my CR, but as I kept pushing myself forward I started locking in. I ignored the initial symptoms of hypnagogia, I've been acquainted with meditating for a while now and know that they're nothing special, however after around 40 minutes of staying focused on my counting and affirming, something about it all changed.

My whole body had been growing heavy and numb, and my thoughts were fading out as if they were becoming more and more distant from me, when suddenly: the voice in my head, my voice, sounded completely different. I was counting and affirming in a woman's voice that didn't sound like mine, but was also eerily familiar, so it surprised me but didn't scare me. Then I got this strange sensation in my face, like it felt as if my mouth was moving even though it wasn't, and somehow I knew that I was feeling the "other me" in my WR talking to someone. I was also getting flashes in my mind's eye of my WR.

I felt this for several minutes before suddenly growing tired and overwhelmed, with aches in my body and head and a full-body feverish heat, and I halted the whole process. I'm a little frustrated with myself for "giving up," because this is the closest I've been in a while, but I'm also quite proud of myself because this is the closest I've been in a while, haha. This has also helped restore a little of my faith in shifting, as well as my own ability to do so, since what I felt, though perhaps not very impressive to others, was just so real to me. It's made my WR feel closer, more real, and more attainable.

For now, I'm just trusting that this is good practice to build me up for when it's the right time to fully shift. I'm trusting that when I'm ready, such physical and mental stress won't overtake me, and I'll simply shift as I'm meant to.