I need help.

A little over a month ago, me and a friend got into drama with this guy on instagram, I’m not gonna say all the details, I’ll make it very brief. He insulted me first then one of my friends took my other friends phone and insulted him, and he then started sending us a lot of bad messages. After that things escalated, other people got involved and sent similar messages to him, and supposedly they talked it out and dropped it. However I tried stopping this escalation, I never wanted a third party to join, I just felt extremely disrespected and I had told another mutual about this situation and they wanted to help me out. I’m just terrfied and looking for certainty because I do not know these people very well, but certainty is never guaranteed. I don’t know what these people could be involved in.

This past week, I genuinely have had extremely bad anxiety. My brain goes crazy with the what if’s. What if anyone is still secretly mad..etc. It’s like the only ever thing on my mind. I feel guilt that I got involved in this situation and it feels like I’m loosing myself. No current events about this situation have came up since then, but that doesn’t stop my brain from all these possibilities regarding the situation.

I’m also dealing with grief. Grief of what life used to be like before this happened, how I was always bubbly, I loved hanging out with my family, but the thought of knowing if they find out what happened just makes me feel like such a failure. I’m a really good kid. I don’t want harm to happen to anyone. I genuinely wouldn’t hurt a fly. I absolutely hate feeling connected to this. I don’t know if I’m overreacting, but I don’t get involved in this kind of stuff. I literally have avoided drama all my life.

How do I deal with this.