I got groomed(?) and now I make up stories of what happened and what could’ve been. NSFW

So in April I met this guy during a birthday party in AC at a hotel. He was 18 and I was five years younger.

Long story short, he went through my phone and found gay porn in my Twitter saves, and then kept touching me sexually, always over clothes, whenever our parents weren’t around. I liked most of it, maybe all of it because I never really got attention from boys and I’m kinda hypersexual.

Lately I’ve been on c.ai, chai, or tumblr or ao3 to make or find stories similar to what happened to me and I’d get off to it, it feels weird, I’d feel weird after it. Someone told me that I wasn’t groom since I was messing around too? I don’t know.

I wanted to know if someone else experienced this or does something like this also?