I am now officially done with being Christian

I made a post about this couple of days ago and I think the overall conclusion that I came to was that my beliefs does not have to follow organised religion and I feel that being Christian is bringing me more pain than anything I feel constantly conflicted with what I know to be true and what I believe I should know to be true as a Christian girl and the more that I read about it and go into what it means, I find myself less less connected to Christianity and Catholicism, this is not just about sexuality or abortion or whatever else it is also the fact that my faith and belief in God has been slowly and slowly decreasing and I hope that he exists I pray to him and I want him to be real but my brain is not letting me believe in him, overall I feel that this thing that has brought so much peace to so many people is something that only causes me in a conflict and pain and long discussions that I don’t want to be having anymore and I don’t feel that I can call myself Christian anymore because truly I just can’t believe it anymore and I wish I could because it would make this whole thing a lot easier but I can’t and I can’t justify following this religion and calling myself Christian when I truly in my heart do not believe it