Chopped with no social skills . Going to be a 25yo virgin. Life is ass

I'm going to be blunt from the bottom of my heart. This is going to be a vent of pure negativity because I am tired and frustrated.

Life is ass.

I wake up every day to go to a blue collar job to grind and break my body for little money and come home and do all the work here as well.

I get no play. I ain't ever had a relationship.

I got no friends, no family connections and nobody to call when life is killing me.

My social skills are shit. I have the personality of a rock.

I have OCD, autism, and social anxiety. I feel and likely am worthless.

I have disappointed myself and my family on every metric imaginable.

When I left my teens I thought my 20s would be better. I changed my life significantly at 23. I fixed a lot of shit in my life. I had a spark of hope for happiness. It took me another year and a half to realize I do not have a drive anymore. I just do it all because I do not want to hurt my grandfather and grandmother. I am sure if they were not here, I would not be here either because all of this grinding feels worthless since I am likely to end up alone even at my best because I cannot fix my social abilities.

My driving purpose was to be a good man and hopefully a dad. But here I am a virgin who has never even kissed or had a proper conversation with a woman. I am not worthy. Time and lack of experience have proven that to me. But the way the economy is going, the job market, wages, my hopes and ambitions are crumbling. It will never happen. I no longer have a dream or hopes.

I wish every morning when I gotta drag my ass out of bed to lace up my boots that I did not wake up that day. I just want this to end. Every day I want this all to just end.