I think I’m not funny anymore

M24 here. First a quick 411: For those that don’t joke alot, “being funny” is often the only thing we have to offer. Socially, or to get through a hard time and obv some of us make it a career.

Some say we’re witty and that’s debatable for some, but I do know I’ve always been hyper aware of every social cue and mannerism (stay with me), and that what separates us ultimately is perspective. That’s even been backed by actual comedians.

Okay now that you know that, my perspective has always felt years ahead of my time. So much that by the time I was about 16 what people find funny my age is… childish? I’m NOT a pompous ass weirdo. I swear! I still make ppl laugh often but I’m sooo much less social now. I have to actually work to change my humor for people I’ve never had to before.

I just feel very cynical and I’m always blunt and I think that’s what made me funnier. But it’s not anything “silly” per se. Theres bits here and there but I really like to practice fluent convo and when I speak in my dry tone people TAKE MY JOKES SERIOUS. And I’m like… no way you believe that… but they do. Then I have to work 8 hours next to them, it’s all a mess. Then you see a streamer or an instagram reel that has 1M likes and reposts and it’s something I would’ve never liked, talked about, shown someone. It’s just feels so foreign suddenly. The things I find funny bring utter silence when I tell people about them.

And that’s why I don’t hang out in the neighborhood because that was all I had. I NEVER did it at anyone’s expense either. I hated bullies and was tested alot because they knew I could take it. Some teachers hated me but I just liked making kids I never spoken to laugh as my first impression.

This sounds crazy but I feel like I’m losing some kinda “comedy neuro-plasticity” because I can’t exercise my ONE superpower. I was NEVER the quiet person. Now I see people take the position at the party I used to have. I mean I don’t get mad at them. It’s good to be funny. But damn it was like all I had to just flow, light up a room and bring ppl together. Just had to vent. Can anyone relate? Ex class clowns what are u up to now?😂💀