My family members don’t really talk to me anymore

Hi guys 20F, not sure how this works but I’ll give it a try
Basically since I failed my exams for uni 2 years ago my family have basically given up on me I don’t go uni now planning to go next year but need to decide
But ever since it happened the whole family turned cold to me , as in they barely talk to me seem unenthusiastic talking to me and it really hurts my feelings badly it’s been going on for 2 years
On my first gap year I remember my brother saying “Dad doesn’t care about what u do because he’s given up on u” and other cruel words and barely talked to me at all since he came back from uni
I remember my sister saying “you’re nothing” on the day before my first exam for barely any reason at all
I remember on my first gap year whilst I was studying for my exams in the kitchen my siblings would make jokes about me and I’d genuinely go to the toilet and just cry for a bit Idek
My cousins barely speak to me too and don’t really like text me at all
My dad came back from abroad to stay for a bit and didn’t talk to me basically the whole months he was here as well
In weddings they don’t talk to me , my brother and sister take pictures together and even tho I’m right there they don’t ask me to come in or anything
Even in 2021 they did this too but I thought in 2025 things would like change or something who was I acc tryna kid LMAO
at first I genuinely thought this treatment was about my exams and stuff and honestly I get it idk if it’s normal or not but I know deep in my soul I would’ve never treated them like that
I’ve realised it’s always been this way and it’s not really just about uni or exams it’s kinda just been this way tbf I am a bum but lowk tryna change but idk if this is normal
I’ve ofc done bad stuff too like postponing my exams the first time when my dad paid for it but it just feels really bad, it’s hard for me to revise in a household where I’m constantly being made fun of about it and I just don’t know what to do I’ve literally turned into such a meek person and apologising for no reason and I’m constantly being nice so I’m not being attacked. I do not know what to do ☹️

I’m sorry if this is badly written !!