Out of lifestyle for 12 year, need advice

I'll try to be brief. I've been out of this lifestyle for 12+ years, I've been celibate for new found religious reasons and avoid self pleasure. I'm not 100% certain, but hormones has me wanting the releases I had when involved.

I've done loads of therapy and not sure it's good for me in a full time/ serious situation. I get to focused on it and not willing to have sex or send nudes etc. I "think" I want to have a few experiences but .... wondering if it's a desire cause of stress or I really miss it.

Any advice or things I should consider very much appreciated.