I Feel Like Giving Up on People

I've been feeling like Ive alI’ve always felt like I’ve been living on borrowed time. Recently, I’ve been feeling tightness in my stomach and my heart racing. I know it’s anxiety because I’ve felt it before, and usually I can stop myself from overthinking it.

Today, though, something happened that made me want to give up on trying to make friends or build relationships with people. A female coworker reported me for making her uncomfortable. We usually talk and work together on assignments, so I don’t know if it was something I said or did. I never tried anything romantic, and I genuinely don’t know what I did wrong.

Now I feel like it’s better if I just don’t interact with people at all, because I always seem to become a problem. My brother went through something similar and ended up getting a work-from-home job and rarely goes out. Part of me feels like that’s the best path for me too.

It seems like whenever I’m around people, they either get annoyed with me or eventually forget about me. I don’t know if I should quit my job, ask to work from home, or just keep showing up, turn my brain off, and wait until it’s time to go home and do nothing but rot away.

I’m too scared to kill myself, but honestly, it feels like life just wasn’t meant for me.