What do I call this?

This happened about a year ago and ive only recently started to realize how horribly wrong i was about it all. My friend had this boyfriend of about two years who i fell horribly in love with. We were talking a lot and the three of us had like made out together 2 weeks before this incident.

I was drinking with my friend and at some point we decided to invite him over to hang out. That is the last thing i remember. When i woke up it was the middle of the night and i was in bed with the two of them with my pants and underwear off. I was a virgin before that night. He was completely sober. The next day he sobbed to me and said he couldnt even look at me because he raped me and i tried to comfort him because in my head he would never hurt me. I told myself he didnt know how much i had to drink.

Since then ive been drunk quite a lot more and i know now that when i am at the point of blackout it is unmistakable. Im nearly incoherent.

I guess i just wanted to know what this is classified as? I was all for it in the moment but in a state where i couldn’t really consent. I later dated him?

Everytime i refer to it with someone who is familiar with the story i say “the night i lost my virginity” and a lot of the time they correct it to rape but that feels too harsh of a word. I never said no and was probably encouraging it?