it doesn’t feel right

16 year old boy, btw.

to put it in prospective, I’m a 16 year old boy, sophomore this coming year, and I genuinely am getting so tired and stressed from everything all at once, not only the political world but just my personal life too, everything is stacking up and I don’t believe anything will ever be actually good again. I have bad thoughts all the time to the point of sleep deprivation, I’m ugly, I’m stupid, I’m lazy, I just cannot do anything right, I’m being treated for anxiety but I’m scared to tell them of the thoughts I have because even if my parents don’t have to be in the room when I say it, they still have to know either way especially if I’m being prescribed medication or whatever.

There’s nothing good about life anymore, my parents split up like 2 years ago and it feels like I’m over it but deep down I wish for the days when they were together and not always arguing over me and my brothers, I try to laugh it off or whatever bullshit im supposed to do, the only thing that ever seems to help is music, that’s it, I feel like I may be a danger to myself especially with how unpredictable my mind is but like I said, I’m scared to tell anyone.