I know I gotta move on but it's hard. I just want a full time job that pays well enough for me to start saving up. I want to earn my own keep. I was looking for a job overseas two months ago and managed to land an interview which I fucked up because Mum wasn't happy I wanted to move NOW which she thought was a bad move. No it isn't because I don't intend on coming back to this bland and sad place. I won't be alone because my boyfriend can move with me anyway, it was well paying enough for me to live like how I live right now. Anyway I'm stuck with looking for a job here. I was painting last night because my new set came in and my boyfriend was asking me over video call why wasn't I looking for a job if I had the time? God forbid a girl paint after a day's worth of adventure out. It (the man) pisses me off so much because looking for a job is hard work and it's not something I want to do 24/7, though I would if we just had an platforms like the Chinese where we can just drop messages like "Hey I possess xxx skills and I am definitely an excellent fit, as per the JD. Here's my resume." Well it was fun looking for a job and sending my resume out to Chinese recruiters then because it was far more convenient IMO. Kinda pissed at my boyfriend too because daddy managed to squeeze him into an extremely stable job, which to be fair, requires an inclination towards it because it's an extremely niche area that they have family business in. Damn it. He'll never understand how it's like to look for a fucking job.

I WANT TO BE EMPLOYED!!!!!!!!

Spicy noodles with pork and runny egg, few strands of vegetables. Extremely yummy. I said no spicy but the handsome young man at the counter heard "spicy".

I haven't heard back from my job applications and I feel crazy