Had a brief taste of friendship and I regret it

I never cared about having friends before. I was fine on my own.

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Against the odds I managed to befriend people on a discord server. But for various reasons, I am no longer able to talk to them.

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Now the loneliness is genuinely crushing. It wasn't like this before. And I don't know what to do about it. Not like I can just easily go and make friends. This was the first time in years.