Rating things my bf has done with his coworker that I'm apparently overthinking due to my BPD

- Immediately following her Instagram on the *day* we ended our three year relationship because he was lying to me for the full 3 years about something else: 0/10. Made me throw up at work

- Currently planning to apply for a new job at the exact same place she's just gotten a job (apparently its because the pay is good and the kids better behaved): Awesome! What a excellent career opportunity babe its a good thing im not in love with you or anything

- Telling me her the man she's seeing is jealous of their friendship: 5/10, he sounds soooo crazyyyy babe

- Telling me they "discussed the possibility they had feelings for eachother" while she was seeing someone and we were broken up for 3 months despite telling me in our relationship he wouldnt be attracted to her ever: 7/10. Would be ten if they had said yes and just fucked eachother and gotten it out of the way though

- Receiving her call while we were lying in bed yesterday at 11am: 7/10, I wasnt in the mood for breakfast anyway so it was a good natural appetite suppressant to look at the call log and see they call constantly even after we got back together

- Her sending him videos of her dancing on holiday and her tits/tummytuck while we were broken up: 8/10. Fair enough, we were broken up. Not great for the current boundaries of their lovely friendship but who am I to judge

- Him getting her a whole carrot cake and dropping it off at her house at her request while we were broken up: 10/10 hes so romanticccc ❤️