When does it end?

I feel guilty even typing this, but I need to know I’m not alone.

I’m early in pregnancy and I am honestly miserable. I love my baby already and I am so thankful to be pregnant because I genuinely didn’t even think I was fertile. I absolutely do not want anything to happen to my baby.

But I hate being pregnant right now. (Not hate to where I’d want something to happen to baby!)

The nausea, exhaustion, bloating, moodiness, feeling physically crappy all the time… I feel like I’m existing, not living. I have no motivation, nothing sounds enjoyable, and I honestly feel trapped in my own body. This is so much harder mentally and physically than I imagined it would be.

I feel horrible saying this because I’m grateful for my baby, but sometimes I just desperately want relief from feeling sick all the time.

Did anyone else feel this miserable in the first trimester and actually feel like themselves again later? I just really need hope and honesty right now.😭

I worry that sometimes feeling this way makes me seem ungrateful and I could potentially lose the baby.. and I genuinely don’t want that. It’s just so physically and mentally exhausting to grow and carry a child. Definitely not as glamorous as I thought it would be so far.