New retinal tear after 10months need to let out the anger 😤

New retinal tear after 10months need to let out the anger 😤 I just had a new retinal tear. I recognised it yesterday evening during shift. I was pretty much in denial although I was sure that it was a new tear. After my doctor said he found something I immediately started crying. I was about to go straight into panic. he was just like "ah no worries.go to the eye clinic, they'll fix it" and went off. Letting me alone sobbing. I tried to hold my tears until I reached the bathroom and wept so hard. Because of the pain I experienced during fhe medical procedures last year, I developed a new trigger for my panic attacks. That's why my reaction to the news was so overwhelming.

Last year I had 3 retinal tears in June 2 weeks later a retinal detachment followed up by 3more tears.i had the tears all lasered and got gas injected for the detachment. Since then I was fighting for my mental health. I was hypervigilant , depressed and anxious. I couldn't work in my actual field as a nurse anymore. It took me up to February this year to stabilise one step at a time. I just started a new job 2 month ago in a new field with less hours. I really enjoy this new work. Why the f*ck now?! Like WHYYYY????!😤😤😤 I'm mad. I'm angry. Sad. Frustrated. Gaaaah

I got laser today and fortunately it wasn't as painful as my last experiences but I also had a few prescribed tranquilizers before I went in.

Maybe someone want to share their anger and rage with me😤😤😤