Vent lang saglit laban ulit

My ex contacted me again and pansin ko lang ha every month natawag. Ano yon to toy my feelings? Or para maging hindrance sa pag heal ko. Kasi taena nag he-heal ako oh while having one of the most import phase in my life.

Tbh I just dont understand the thought process ng ex na tatawag right before the board exam as in the day ng board exam. Tatawag ng madaling araw para ano? Para manga musta? Para saan pa?. Dude where already over 4 months na tayong wala. And really natawag ka every month woth dofferent number para lang mangamusta? Sana okay ka lang haha.

Well Im glad na wala na tayo and thank God for that. Thank God that you walk away first because pag ako yun? Baka hanggang ngayon pinag checheatan parin ako without me knowing.

So yun nga tumawag siya diba. So nasagot ko kasi akal ako grab dumating na yung food ko na babaunin for board kaso tangina boses nya ateker. So sabi ko I dont have the energy and emptional capacity to do this rn. Nag re- reminiscing pa soya ng past thats when I decided to drop the bomb kasi, ako alam ko ako makakausap ako pero siya parang malabo. So sinabi ko sa kanya na nagets ko. Na gets ko yung thrill na hinanap nya during kami. Kasi ako sabi ko after you called at inamin na nag cheat ka ( 3 months after break up ko nalaman) sabi ko I tried to find answer khng bakit mo ginawa yun. And yun sinabi ko sa kanya na nakipag ons ako. After saying that nanahimik siya. I dont know kung na hurt ko ego or what kasi yung ex nya cheated on him nakipag sex din. Tas he’s trying to find answer khng bakit and pinipiga niya ako sa details. Sabi pa noya na hinde ko daw magagawa yun.

I ronically siguro dati oo pero after the hurt? I can attest na you’ll do things that you thought you wouldn’t do just to find answer. And Im not proud of what I did. Pibag sisihan ko kasi it doesnt give me answer eh. Even siya hinde siya makapaniwala na nagawa ko yun.

Sabi ko pa na Idk if mandiri ka after knowing that. Tapos sabi niya hinde daw siya man didiri kasi mahal daw niya ako. Like dude are you out pf your mind. And really playing mind games just right before my exam. Less than an hour before my board exam?. So ang ginawa ko I turn phone off and move on since. He’s not worth it. I dont deserve someone will throw me when things get heavy on their way. I dont need someone who will cheat just because they cant handle their emotions. I dont deserve someone na two faced, and someone I should beg for bare minimum.

And tbh Im glad, Im glad that it didn’t work out like how I wanted it to be. and Im better of without him anyway. Im just furious kasi hes still calling me. I already block him on social media’s pero nakaka tawag parin sa phone number ko using different numbers. Gusto ko na tuloy mag iba ng number pero important lang kasi to sa businesss ko.