I'm pursuing an emotional distress case against moonbeam because of the sexual trauma he has caused me

I can't eat properly, I can't sleep properly, I can't drink. Self care is hard right now.

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I kept trying to post my story on different subreddits, and they deleted it and refuse to even talk to me about it. It made me feel like he was the only safe space I have online I can talk to. It made me feel that I was stuck in a trauma loop. No one else is giving me guidance and support so I had nowhere to turn to except the person who was being me. It's technically not him who was hearing my story, it was BestCub. But it still felt like he was my only safe space online even though he traumatized me.

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I posted on vent, without mentioning reddit or anything. And then someone did message me and hear out my story. I really appreciate them. They didn't have to reach out like that, but I appreciate that they did. They told me I should stay away from moonbeam/BestCub. And maybe I think I should. I'm not talking to moonbeam anymore. I deleted Google chat. But I stil am conflicted about the whole thing. I even joked with BestCub. "Hey you're the best one. Where's your success stories? You must have a lot of kills. Why are you keeping it to yourself girl?" Hahaha.

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But anyways. I am taking it slowly day by day.

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I want to sue him for $2 million dollars because moonbeam is rich. But I'll see how it goes. I'll talk to a lawyer sometime after I talk to my doctor and get some support.

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Maybe right now I should focus on my health and helping other people with manifesting, by just sharing my story. I feel like God told me the only thing I really need to do is share my story with my fiance.