Am I insane?

Am I insane for wanting to be more or less dyslexic. Heres some backstory, I was diagnosed when I was in the 2nd grade and went to reading class everyday for 45 mins till 6th grade. Then it stopped in middle school. But now I am in HS and back into a literacy class, that has me and one other kid. I go there every day for one class period. Even though I am in that class I am also going to Honors ELA next year. I also sadly have to do summer school as my teacher doesnt want me to lose my progress. But am I insane for wanting to be more dyslexic? My best friend has dyslexia as well and she goes to a dyslexic school, and we have talked about it before. But, for the past year and especially right now I feel like I am constantly in the middle. Like I am dyslexic but for some reason I feel like I am not enough of a dyslexic to call myself one. I am here mainly just for a rant as my parents wouldnt get it as they are both not dyslexic or neurodivergent. But, is it insane to have this feeling of wanting to be more dyslexi?