Why does weed just make me feel negative man

Its literally never done for me what everyone else says it does for them. Id always feel like the color of the world got sapped and a panic attack felt right around the corner. I mean maybe a handful of times have i not felt just geeked out of my mind and felt a relaxing positive experience. Surely some of yall understand being sober all the time isnt preferable but i dont want to drink just to feel a positive buzz. Like do i just need to snipe my tolerance so i can handle it or is it just not meant to be for me