I became too good at forgetting

I can’t remember yesterday. I don’t remember my siblings growing up. I keep thinking it’s 2023, and when I see the calendar I feel numb. I’m happy, but I’m losing my life to this amnesia.

I’m stuck in a cycle of forgetting and remembering I have amnesia. When I find things I don’t remember the happy fantasy comes crashing down. Then I forget I remembered and go back to this happiness built on amnesia. I feel distressed, and that makes me more dissociated.

Does anyone else feel like this?