Suicide.

Hi everyone, I posted this in the herpes sub (it got removed after a while) as I want my death to be cautionary tale for other young people. I’m a 24yr male. I’ve made mistakes in my life that I actively think about and try to correct and improve to this day. However, recently i’ve found myself in a predicament that I know in my soul I will not have the mental fortitude to handle for the rest of my life. I had unprotected sex with a female 2 Sundays ago. I’ve felt nothing but tingles on my feet, legs, thighs, penis, groin, chest, arms, neck etc. I have no lesions or bumps or anything on my body but as most of you know you can be asymptomatic especially as man. I’ve told my doctor and he said not to worry about it and gave me the anti viral suppressants to calm me down mentally (i was freaking out in the doctor’s office). Anyway, he said to get tested if i see any bumps or lesion appear to get swabbed. I live at home with parents, they know something is wrong with me as i have been extremely depressed since realizing that i have fucked up my future. I workout, eat healthy, always had an easy time getting women due to my looks & height but i realize that means nothing anymore. At the age of 24 ive ruined my future hopes of having a pretty, loving wife, children and a home (and do not recommend positive singles, the app sucks, everyone is over 30 and in bumblefuck) and because of this I want to and plan on killing myself as my suicidal thoughts keep getting louder. If you are a young man or woman and reading this, please learn from my mistakes, make sure your partners or anyone you have sex with is fully tested for STDs and knows there’s status. Temporary pleasures never outweighs a life time of happiness. In the next the life, whatever that is…i hope my soul has learned that lesson.