There are things that make me aroused but idk if that's sexual attraction?

What is sexual attraction, really? I've been wondering if I feel it or not for quite a while.

​

I know what arousal is, I know it doesn't need to be tied to anything, sometimes I get it at random. But there are some things that make me feel it, like when I see certain nsfw art or read erotica. So I'm wondering if that's what sexual attraction is?

​

Idk, even when something causes it, it always feels idle, if that makes sense? It's never as intense as it seems to be for most people. It's also not like I ever want to participate, like, if I read a sexy scene in a story I might think it's hot, but if I were ever put in that situation IRL it would just weird me out. But I still like thinking about it while masturbating.

​

So anyway, I'm just left wondering, maybe I do feel sexual attraction and it's just much less intense than it happens in most people? Or am I lacking that sensation entirely and this is something else? Because the way I seem to understand and relate to sex and eroticism in general also seems to be very different from the way most people do. So I'm wondering what causes it to be different, I suppose. Idk.