M27 cheating lead to discovering what hotwife/cuckold is

When i first started dating at 17/18/19 i thought sex is only ment to be with one partner. But then i got carried away and kinda cheated. No sex just kissing and making out and sleeping together. I didnt felt bad tho my partner didnt liked it when she figured. Next time i cheated and fucked another girl at party and took her virginity. Next day i met my gf at the time and again i didnt feel bad , maybe just a little bit guilty because the other girl i fucked kinda wanted more from me. Later on when i went long distance, my gf cheated, i saw her texts and eventually she even told me. And it was really hot for me to imagine. Something awakened in me that day, and since then i found it hot. I spiraled down the whole cheating porn till i found out about cuckolding and hotwifing lifestyle. I accepted im open minded now and dont want a relationship if we cant agree to finding other people attractive and maybe fucking them if we feel so, while maintaining relationship and clear communication and trust. It doesnt have to be a relationship deal breaker. Nowadays i think its one of the hottest thing in the world or on this planet seeing your gf being hot, and excited/curious to fuck another guy and come home to me dripping his cum and tell me all about it. I even find it hot, if she would tend to switch to period where some lucky guy would be filling her more than me for some time, and she would be all playfull about it. Its something im looking forward to experience when i find the one to be with. Curious if others find it hot too, or ever tried or is living it? Specifically curious to hear it from Girls who done it or find it hot! Even if its cheating and he is not aware!