Hi all, a little background I (26F) was in active heroin addiction for about 2 years, currently in a MAT recovery program, I have 9months clean time. Prior to using, my skin was so clean and smooth and i rarely got pimples or anything. At the height of my addiction, when i started to use fent, i noticed i immediately started breaking out, like within the next day or so, every time. Eventually, my skin was just covered in pimples and dark marks and I couldn’t even tell what was new acne and wasn’t. Since I have been clean, and I’ve gotten and stuck to a skin care routine, my skin is a lot smoother, I don’t break out nearly as much, but it still happens. I notice that my skin is so oily now, and i have so many dark marks.   
I do want to note that when i was using opiates, like actual percocet, my skin had no issues, when i started using fentanyl, my acne started, then i went to heroin, and nothing changed. My efforts with my current skincare routine and obviously caring about what i put in my body, has helped minimize the breakouts.  
I am so insanely insecure, i cry about my skin multiple times a week, i won’t go out in public unless i absolutely have to, and even then, i will put on makeup or wear a hat, to cover up some of my face so that it doesn’t look so bad. I just feel like i have no idea what to do. I’m so sad and embarrassed to be seen by anyone. I wonder if me being on MAT still is halting my skin from going back to how it was before, since this all started after heavy opioid use and just stayed. Or, if it’s just a result of my skin being greasier as a result of my addiction. I just need help. Idk if it matters but i guess i want to add that my body does run a much hotter temp regularly now as well.   
I just hope to god by some miracle that there is someone out there who has gone through this as well and can maybe offer some advice and/or comfort.   
Thanks for reading if you got this far. 🥺🩷  
I tried to add before and after pictures, but i don’t think i did right. :/

Addiction ruined my skin, and i don’t know how to get it back.