My wife makes me feel small and i feel like s**** myself from depression

My wife makes $7k a month and has been doing the same job for 2 years. Meanwhile ive had trouble finding new work in my field (computing) since being laid off last year and have been working retail to make ends meet on my end since we split 50/50. She always wants to go on vacation, go to dinners etc but i just cant afford it and when i say this she gets mad to the point of name calling me, saying its my fault i dont have a good job, saying im "annoying" etc Im using my bank overdraft because of too much overspending and not enough from my retail job since being laid off in tech. She has over $18k saved and more while i have literally negative balance and belittles me. What do i even do