Did you have suspicious moles your whole life?

I don’t have melanoma but I’m concerned because I’ve noticed some asymmetrical and discolored moles. I have roughly 150-200+ moles on my body and am overwhelmed because I know I’m genetically fucked (I’ll have to constantly get full body checkups and am at an increased risk of melanoma).

Any advice for this? Ik the response is always “see your derm asap” but I don’t see how I can comfortably live long term when I’m self conscious about my moles and worried of getting cancer…