Free

I need it to do it, just doesn't make sense anymore. I want peace, happiness, excitement, positivity. I want to feel the sun in my skin and be grateful for it, hear the rushing water and understand what it's telling me. I want to feel the wind between my fingers when I'm driving. Hear the singing birds in the mornings. I want to feel alive. I want the colors to be bright again. The only thing that is left from you in my life is anxiety. I also fell and tried to start the cycle again. But no, not this time. The safety I felt with you at the start, the sense of belonging, you mafr sure to dismantle it piece by piece in every painful possible way.

That 👍 that you gave my last message to you, was the best gift you could've given me. It was actually impressive how you went from essays in texts, to an emoji. Yet you said much more with it. I'm free.