I don’t know how to do this

My husband left me a month ago and I just can’t cope. We’ve been together half my life. I don’t know how to do this without him. I don’t want to be a single parent. I don’t want to be without him. I feel like screaming into the void for someone to give me my family back. Give me my husband back. Give me my life back. But no one is listening. I miss him. I miss him so goddamn much it physically hurts. I miss him every second of every day. I miss everything about him. The good, the bad, the broken. I spent my whole life dedicated to loving him and building with him. And raising this little family we made together and now it’s been ripped from me. All of it. My whole life. I get a small taste of normal and after the moment passes I sink deeper into despair that everything I worked for is gone. He left me. He broke our family in half. I wasn’t enough. I’m not good enough to love anymore. How could anyone else love me? How can I love anyone else the way I’ve loved him? I don’t want this life. I don’t know how to live in it alone. Knowing I’m so flawed that the man who vowed to always be mine couldn’t bear another day married to me. I don’t know what I did to deserve this hurt. I don’t know how I earned this pain. I just wanted to be a wife and a mom. His wife. And the mother to his kids. And now, what am I? Who am I? How do I keep going when there’s no future to look forward to?