What do you call it when you hate romance but nor for you?

Everytime I see a couple, I hate it. Not always though, sometimes, when I'm not being an unhappy and apathetic blob I get to think it's cute. But most of the time I just find happy couples quite disgusting.

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And I feel so wrong for that. What's the issue? Everyone is doing it. I hate that everyone's doing that. I hate that I'm pressured into that mold as well.

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But when I meet someone I really cherish them and wouldn't mind letting them do whatever they want to me. Though I haven't tried anything so I'm not sure.

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Will the chemistry in my brain be altered so I don't gag(in my head) everytime I see a couple kissing eventually?