I've been struggling a lot with my gender identity lately and am hoping I can find some guidance.

I was born female, am a lesbian, and like feminine clothing but when someone uses she/her pronouns for me or calls me a girl I feel a pit in my stomach. in middle school I experimented with pronouns and gender identity a lot and found that nothing quite fit so I stuck with identifying as cis. Now that I'm in college I'm becoming more of my own person and realize that being called by just my name makes me happy. I don't like it when people use pronouns for me and have always loved when people called me by my name. I've been trying to do research as to what I could be but I feel like I don't fit in with anyone. nonbinary is not conforming to any specific gender and using they/them or other gender non conforming pronouns but I don't like being called any of them. Agender is being genderless but I still like being feminine just not being called She or girl. And then I found Nullpronominal but couldn't find any community online for it.

I want to be feminine but not be called she or a woman. I want to be genderless but does me being afab and feminine negate that? I like being a lesbian but if I am agender or nonbinary can I still identify as lesbian or would I have to be something else? And what do I put on social media? if I have no pronouns in my bio I'm perceived as a bigot and I can't explain all of this confusion in a bio.

Am I the only person in the world who feels like this or are there others like me?