day one without you, what i wish i could say

hi, i’m not looking forward to doing life without you. i want you to come over. losing you is the hardest thing i’ve ever done. i’m going to miss telling you about my day and laughing with you. so here’s about my day.

today at raft guide school i fell out of the boat while trying to guide the competition channel. it was horrible. i hate swimming in whitewater. i’m worried i won’t be able to complete raft guide school because i can barely make it down the family channel without flipping the boat. i can’t get on top of the boat by myself and i have to be able to do that. i just wish you were here to hold me and tell me it’s okay. i’m never going to stop missing you. i hope you had a good day and are feeling okay. i love you so much.