I hate being weird

I don't know how I ended up like this. I don't have friends anymore. People just avoid me now. I was even fired because I made people feel "uncomfortable". I was a cashier at a liquor store. Even the pt place I was going to doesn't want to talk to me. When my time ran out I didn't have to wait long for another approval but they didn't call me back. So I called them. They said just email the paperwork to them, sure ok. But when I called back they didn't pick up. They didn't pick up the next day or the one after that, or the week after that. It's too late for me to have any friends. Who the fuck would hang out with a middle aged disabled guy. I'm so tired, I've been crying through this whole thing. Now I just want to be left alone. I hate people. Just let me die in peace.