Im ftm but transitioning seems so difficult with how the world treats men

Im a very masculine looking female already, so being perceived as gay/lesbian is already a thing for me. Im dating a woman, and i fear if i go on t i’ll sound like a gay dude. I honestly do not want to deal with that at all. I also fear not passing and looking very effeminate in a woman way rather than effeminate in a man way, and people being able to clock me. I just want to be a full man but its not possible. It makes me feel like i have an extra layer of insecurity in expressing myself in my clothes, because if im already female but transition on T and try to accessorize i may just look like a gay guy or a “confused” woman. I just want to be a man with no social labels in the slightest in relation to my sexuality or appearance. I know thats not entirely possible, because t is heavily reliant on genetics. Do other people feel this way? Did u just stay pre t forever or are u planning on just biting the bullet and seeing what happens?